Everyone, at one time or another, has a problem. Any kind of problem, emotional, physical, spiritual, financial, any old kind of problem.
Stop and think, if you are one of the people with a problem at this moment, stop and think how important this problem will be to you in a week, a month, next year. It won’t be important. It will be in the past, a place you don’t live, if you live mindfully in the moment right now and right then.
I must say being an extremely psychic person makes me nervous. I get nervous when I feel what I call the undertow. There is a feeling that something is going to happen, that there is nothing I can do about this something and actually, that there is nothing I should do about this something.
And then, inevitably, the something occurs. It can be something affecting all of us or just something affecting me, my life, not important at all in the great scope of the Universe. But before it affects me, it makes me nervous.
Once the undertow has delivered its meaning to me, the nervousness goes away. I become extraordinarily calm, complacent even. Because in that moment that the undertow reveals the problem to me, it also reveals the solution. My happiness hinges on not owning the problem, but on owning the solution.
There have been factors in my life over the last 4 years that have brought me to a place where I have to learn to live with uncertainty. My husband, who first began to show signs of his terminal illness many years ago, became much worse 4 years ago. He began with a bad episode of shingles, all over his head. He complained of pain so bad on his head that he could not sleep for days. Of course I took him to the doctor who ordered a CAT scan. The doctor missed the breaking out of blisters on my husband’s head. We don’t go to that doctor any longer.
After the CAT scan on a Friday, by Saturday the blisters were all over the right side of his head and were starting to weep. It was then that I took him to the ER and where he had an anti-virus medication administered to him intravenously. That ER was the pits and although I have taken him there since, I wouldn’t take a dog there again. That night they discharged him home, leaving the IV in his arm. I had to take him back there to have it removed. How would that look in a malpractice lawsuit? Seriously.
We are now 4 years down the road. He was finally diagnosed in February of 2012. A year and some months later, it was no longer possible for him to be at home. It was no longer safe here, with him crawling up the stairs to go to bed, not able to get out of bed on his own, the multiple things he could no longer do made living in a nursing home the only option.
Well that was hard. And yet, now, we’re going into his 2nd year in the nursing home and he is well taken care of, content with where he’s at. He has been absorbed into the life on the unit, rather than always missing his home. It is good that this has happened, because the poor man had no other choice.
And then I have my own instances of the undertow, involving this that or the other thing. Once whatever is going to happen, happens, I am relieved. I had an undertow the day before last. It was uncomfortable. I felt like some sort of crisis was going to happen. Well, a crisis did not happen. What happened instead was a circumstance that made me take off my rose-colored glasses and see something with pure vision, for once. The blinders were taken off. The situation, which had been making me horribly unhappy for two or three months, was revealed as the sham that it was. I saw the complete truth. And wow, it didn’t hurt! I had been resisting what I knew to be good for me because I didn’t want to feel pain …….. and when that situation resolved itself, showed itself to be the nasty, manipulative situation it was, there wasn’t any pain. There was only immense relief.
So if you stop, take a look at what is coming toward you or what you think your current crisis might be, just quit resisting. You might find, like I did yesterday, that the after effects of the undertow are actually quite pleasant. Not all undertows portend unhappiness ……….. sometimes they bring just what is needed. Peace.