What a difference a few hours make. Although life will still be a trial for a while, things look much brighter at 3:36 pm than they did at 1:00 am this morning.
I colored my hair again – I might need to stop doing that – thank God I have a healthy head of hair or it wouldn’t take it. I’ve been hair-color crazy this past two months. I’ve bleached it, colored it, colored it again, put more bleach on …………. and one more color. Back to where I was when I started the whole mess. I’ll start letting it go gray when I hit 75 or 80.
I called someone else about clearing out the house. This is an auction house that’s been in business for 41 years and does the auctions here in Bangor. He’s coming over next week. He also told me his daughter bought a home in Millinocket – just a bit up I-95 North – for $4500.00. With a $4500 or even a $25000 house – I could afford to heat the thing. It wouldn’t be as big as this one either, although they do tend to build big in Maine. I’ll look for a little house, 1200 square feet or less, all on one floor. No basement, maybe a cellar. A nice backyard, a porch for my swing, no neighbors as far as the eye can see. Yep. I’m going there.
He also said he has 6 up for tax auction next week. Whenever I can, as soon as I can, I’m checking out Millinocket. I don’t care where I live, I carry my life with me, so Bangor, Millinocket or whatever, I’m good. He also said these aren’t run down houses that need lots of repair, they are good houses. Oh boy. Get me to Millinocket. Then I could see Mt. Katahdin in the distance ……….
On another absolutely bright note, the realtor sent the mowers back for the house to the side and back of me. That backyard looks like it’s my backyard. It is not. It goes with a house that fronts on Broadway. So cool, 3′ high weeds, weed trees, all the nasty growing green stuff that isn’t mine, is gone. I love those guys. They’re coming back tomorrow to finish up, although they’re still out there working away.
I spent an hour chanting with KD. I decided that the iPod touch which belonged to my husband was fair game. I had to have help syncing it to my iTunes account, but it’s done and now I have the touch. It sounds way better than a Nano. I don’t have my Canadian downloads on my US iTunes account, so I will have to buy them again. I won’t get all of the chants I had because some are repetitive.
Now I have to decide just what, besides all the paintings and the other stuff I had in one post, I’m going to give him. I’m thinking about losing a leather couch, a coffee table that weighs a thousand pounds and a couple of antique dressers. Everything that isn’t nailed down is fair game. I want out of here the first moment I can and I’m going to be ready. Very ready.
I looked at the ashram that I posted earlier. Honestly. No tobacco. Well that let’s me out. I’ll quit smoking 3 or 4 days after I die. I’m not interested in going somewhere where I can’t even go hide and smoke. I worked on a tobacco-free campus for the outdoor outfitter. We all got in our cars and drove down to the nearest parking lot. It was a regular traffic jam with all of us out there. So no thanks. The non-smoking thing is hazardous to my health. I figure I have to die somehow ……. might as well enjoy the time I have left.
Another vegetarian meal is on the menu tonight. Blueberry pancakes, from scratch with fresh homemade blueberry syrup. I can get into that. I’m not making them, though I will do the syrup. I have to participate a little bit ……………….
Then knitting. I spent last night trying to concentrate on the Lipstick sweater by Joji. It’s probably me, but that pattern drives me nuts. I don’t have the patience for it now, so I’m switching my SSKAL sweater to the Worsted Boxy here:
Just what I need, mindless knitting. Miles of mindless knitting. And it is definitely me. I love it.
I may even decide to visit the old man, round about October or November …………..